This last week I have realized how
much I really need the Lord. Every trial we go through, it needs to be with the Lord walking right beside us. Throughout this
past week, I had to go through a lot of trials. I tried to not turn to him. I
tried to do it by myself. And guess what? I couldn't. I absolutely can't do it
without everyday help from the Lord. I can't make it through the day without
the Lord whispering in my ear at least once "You can do it Izzy." or
"You'll be okay. I promise. You will make it through this."
My friend Tyler passed away this
week. It really hit me hard. But this time I decided to ask for help. Just to
see what happened. And he was there every step of the way. Every time I felt
sorrow remembering my friend was gone, I felt this overwhelming sense of
comfort and love. I knew that Tyler was okay, and he was doing perfectly fine.
You know how I feel about needles
right? I hate them with all of my soul. You know what I hate even more? Needles
in my mouth. That's right. I went and got cavities filled. (Not my fault! My
teeth didn't develop right so they came in with cavities on them. Don't judge
kay?) On the way to the dentist this last Friday, I was feeling very anxious
and scared. I prayed that I wouldn't be. I prayed that I would be able to feel
peace coming into this. It worked. They gave me laughing gas. The Lord works in
mysterious ways my friends. ;)
I realized that I want the Lord in
my life. I can't do it without him. I need that sense of stability in my ever
changing teenage life.
Today in Young Women's we learned
about the Grace Of God. There is one quote that I would like to share that I
really pulled out of that lesson.
"By
the Grace of God we are saved, AFTER all we can do.”
Love it. We need to do everything we possibly can. We need
to give this life our all, and after we do that, it’s still not enough. But our
God is merciful, our God loves us. Our god is willing to say, “Hey, It’s
alright. You did your best and that’s all that matters. Come home to me my
child.”
There have been many times in my life where I have knelt
before the Lord saying, “Please? Please just give me one more chance.” He never
says no to that. I turn to the Lord whenever I can. I love the relationship I
have with him. I hope that you do too.
I would like to close this post with my testimony if you don’t
mind.
I know this gospel is true. I know that the Lord loves us.
Christ died for us because he loves us too. He knows what we go through. I know
that when he was in the Garden of Gethsemane he had a personal moment with each
and every one of us. I have a strong testimony of the atonement and its powers.
I know that Joseph Smith is a prophet of God and he translated the Book of
Mormon. I know that President Monson is the prophet of the Lord. The Holy Ghost
tells me all of these things are true. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
